January 4th Fast Sunday

I have never been a big fan of fasting; I get ornery, my stomach hurts, I binge when I am done.  Today was different.  The last several days have been difficult so I decided to fast more purposefully.  I wanted to strengthen my testimony and know that things would get better; I wanted out of this slump.  My prayers were answered.  It was testimony meeting and I knew the boys likely wouldn't want to share their testimony so I asked them to write it down for me and they did.  I have been blessed with such wonderful boys.  I love them so much.

At the end of sacrament we sand "I Know that My Redeemer Lives" and I felt the truth of the line that says "He lives to silence all my fears," and "He lives to wipe away my tears."  While it doesn't seem like anything to anyone else and I don't even know what it is; the Savior knows me and what I am feeling and he is there for me.  He always has been and he always will be.  Then I went to Peter's Sunday school class and we had a good lesson on the Holy Ghost and RS was on receiving personal inspiration.  I feel like I need to do more on my part to get answers and to grow closer to my Heavenly Father.  I want to spend more time searching for answers because I know that if I seek them out then I will receive them.

Anyway, after church we went and visited Sister LaChance who has a daughter, Brooke, dying of cancer.  She got skin cancer years ago in high school but it has now mutated to bone cancer and is in all throughout her body and in her brain.  The doctors are still trying but things don't look good.  It was a hard but good visit.  I don't know how they will make it through this but I know that the Lord is there to help them when they turn to him.  We pray for them every night.

I go my work done tonight and took a break to read scriptures and have prayer with the kids. So thankful to Peter for making this a priority in our home.  Love, love, love him.